We 'THE BEAUTIFUL' Souls.

Yes...i do know life isn't about rainbows and butterflies always,and i learned this the hard way. Some days it just doesn't feel right , doesn't feel like i belong. I try to fit in like any other normal person does , blend in with the crowd but somehow even in the noisiest crowd i feel hollow inside. Is that normal? Does all of us sometimes feel the same way? I don't know about anyone else but this feeling has been my only constant friend for a long time. Growing up as a obese kid always had left me wondering with how my life would have been if i were just like everyone else, not only in my childhood , this has affected me in ways i couldn't have imagined, of course when i was in my teens i was a bad-ass , but being obese had limitations, i grew up being socially awkward , i'd avoid crowds , i had such low self-esteem and my confidence level? Don even get me started on it!
Even to this date i am still insecure with everything about me.This has been life for me ever since i remember. People look at me and they see a fat women who they literally thinks eats cows,what they forget is underneath all the heavy bulged muscles there's a beautiful soul.I think maybe its the feeling of constantly being let down,humiliated and degraded is why i am the way i am, people fail to see the gorgeousness filled inside someone , rather they see the outer layer.
So all you beautiful souls out there its okay to feel a little off once in a while, but do not let the negativity of anyone drag you down, you are not what you eat , you are how you choose to treat others, be kind and humble because my dears the world needs a lot of that.and to those who think being fat is ugly ...no being fat isn't ugly, being such a narrow minded is.